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My Story
Dear Reader
Regardless of who you are, where you are, or what you are doing in this world right now, my hope is that every word of what I share with you will connect to you in some way.
I say this solely because I live to give all I have in this world and truly believe that the best way to go forward is to give back and help others, just as others have helped you in life.
My name is Jason Ram. I served in the military, worked in youth development, and have a background in freelance journalism. Like so many others in this world, I did not have a peaceful start to life and grew up in a home that was anything but stable.
I learned how to deal with a multitude of pains that included domestic violence, bullying, and an identity crisis of sorts for being born into one culture while being shunned by the other. How do you gain acceptance from your friends while fighting for acceptance from your family? How do you fit in and stand out?
It was also hard to keep up in school, when there was so much to keep quiet about at home. Since I could not share what I was going through, I just did what I had to do to get through the day. To cope with the chaos I felt in my heart, I started writing in my room. I wrote letters to myself, wrote poetry, and wrote fanfiction based on my favorite shows.
I used my creativity to escape my reality. The more pain I felt, the more I wrote. The more I wrote, the better I became as a writer. I learned how to use my mind to survive whatever I was going through and stay focused on the inside.
As a result, I became widely regarded by teachers as being good at writing, but very little else. While many of them encouraged me to keep writing, there was one that told me to avoid doing anything else, Ms. Payne.
Ms. Payne served as one of my first teachers in high school, who later became the strongest source of motivation. She routinely advised me, with care, that my biggest goals of going to college, becoming a writer, and joining the military to become an Air Force officer were beyond my abilities.
During my first life-after-high-school talk with her, she advised me to get a job, avoid college, and forget about joining the military because “The Air Force has the highest requirements of math and science. That is them. That is not you. So, that’s probably not gonna happen.”
While it would have been easy to accept her advice, it would have been hard to live with it, so I chose not to. Instead, I wrote my goals on a piece of paper every morning, and repeated it to myself at least once every day.
A few months later, I watched the 9/11 attacks live on TV. When I saw the Twin Towers fall, I felt my heart drop, and my patriotism rise. Suddenly, I did not care how anyone saw me, because I now saw myself in a different light.
It broke my heart to see those people die, and I never forgot the pain, anger, and drive I felt to do something about it. I now had 2,977 reasons to go after my dreams.
10 years later, I graduated from Air Force officer’s training in 2011. It was a dream-come-true that required me to go through a nightmare to make it happen. After rising to the rank of Captain, I chose to transition out to work in youth development and pursue a career rooted in serving others.
Today, I am very much a peaceful guy at heart and live a quiet life. I don’t smoke, or drink, or post much on social media (I don’t live for ‘likes’). And the only club I care about has plenty of parking and bulk items at low prices.
By all accounts, you could say I live a boring life, and I’d say you were right because it’s nowhere near the hyperactive and outwardly attractive lifestyle that is so often desired.
But it is a life I am happy with because it allows me to have some inner peace while keeping my focus on serving others.
Thank you for taking the time to read this. Enjoy the book!
Much love and respect -Jason
The Suicide
1 Dream
1 Vision
10 Years in the making

In December 2015, I started work on a book I never thought I could finish, purely because it was too painful to think about, much less write about on a daily basis: The Suicide.
Born out of an intense reflection of my suicide attempt in 2013, while driven to honor the memory of the people I lost to it in the military, I envisioned this book as my go-to guide to raise questions and field answers about life after death for suicide victims, based on what I learned about it in my life.
But how do you write a book that is so dark and depressing to develop? How can you bring to life a story that is about death?
I had no idea how I could start this book, and it scared the hell out of me to wonder if I could finish it. Still, I threw myself into the work and slowly began to write it day-by-day.
10 years later, I finished writing The Suicide in July 2025. What began as a simple reflection of my suicide attempt grew into the fictional journey of a young person who commits suicide, visits Heaven (or Hell....or maybe both!) and learns about how their early death and departure from this world left a lasting impact on the people they left behind in the life they could have had.
What does it mean to take your life? Find out now!
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CONTACT and Legal Disclaimer

This book contains graphic descriptions of self-harm, depression, domestic violence, abuse, trauma, cyberbullying, suicide, and interpretations of life after death. Read at your own risk.
While the narrative may feature content that could be interpreted as guidance, this book is not intended to provide professional guidance, or serve as a substitute for mental health treatment, or otherwise be interpreted as a replacement for professional medical help of any kind in any way.
This book is not intended to promote the ideation of, or encourage acts of self-harm or suicide. If you have experienced suicidal thoughts or considered acts of self-harm, please get medical help.
This is a work of fiction. Unless otherwise indicated, all names, characters, businesses, places, events, and incidents in this book are either the product of the author's imagination or used in a fictitious manner. Any resemblance to persons, living or dead, or actual events is coincidental.
Copyright © 2025 Jason Ram
All rights reserved. No part of this book may be reproduced, distributed, or transmitted in any form or by any means, including photocopying, recording, or other electronic or mechanical methods, without the prior written permission of the author, Jason Ram, except in the case of brief quotations used in reviews and other non-commercial uses permitted by copyright law.


